Today

I did the most epic Christmas shopping ever today i went to Michael's and bought the Martha Stewart score board and got it for 10. i then went to Joann's and got two Christmas gifts plus two 180 sheet scrap booking 12x12 paper each for 10 then i finally got my little spatula thing for my cricut i got glossy accents to try it out for the first time. then i went to hobby lobby and got a cricut cartridge the just because cards and then i got a very cool rolling storage for the cricut 100 dollars got it 50% off same with the cartridge i was like yesss awesome shopping!!!! now to go finish up some hw i have a busy week this week got to get gifts ready then more Christmas shopping tomorrow then card making party at school wed then hunters bday party on sat then the Christmas party I'm hosting on Friday gosh busy week!!!!! I'm excited lots of work to do!

*sigh* Holidays

This will be the first Christmas without my Mema and I'm not ready for it i wish i could just skip over this holiday season. but on another note this week is my last week of school for Christmas break and I'm ready for a break but it wont be a normal break this year ill have my cousin hunter with me for 2 weeks  of Christmas break =D should be fun and interesting all at the same time haha. I'm also starting my graduation announcements over break because the fact i go to a private school we dont't have people who do things like that for us vs if you went to a public school so if you want fun graduation type stuff you have to do it for yourself! which I'm completely fine with and like true Emily fashion as a few friends would call it I'm making hello kitty themed announcements i have this cool cricut cartridge that has her in a cap and gown and so I'm doing hello kitty and a cherry blossom tree behind her it will be really cool i cant wait! speaking on graduation i honestly kind of don't want to walk my Mema wont be there and it makes it less appealing i know ill probably feel different by May but it just wont be the same without her being there. *sighs*

Hrms

=( my camera broke it totally sucks i was actually gonna try to make another video to put on YouTube and maybe talk on it but i sound so weird talking on camera and I'm like way to shy for it lol which sounds weird because if you actually know me i talk a lot lol. but any who some projects I've been working on:




the two wall hangings up at the top to the left of the butterflies are my latest canvas wall hangings the black one is all stencils i used a cherry blossom and peace symbol and a fairy i painted it black and dabbed the fairy on with a range pearl paint dobber, the other one is a dark blue canvas with a vintage picture i got out of a magazine i had bought and photocopied her wings are grunge board by tim holtz and covered with distress blue crackle paint. i also put a strip of film ribbon also by time holtz and stenciled on life and put beautiful across the top with scrabble pieces to spell out beautiful life.

some flowers i have been making thinking about selling them let me know if you would like some =D

this started out as a random wooden butterfly i bought at a thrift store and i re did it i painted it with a dark/turquoise blue color and stamped with archival ink across it with a script stamp then on top of that i put in flight both in black ink then stenciled the fairy and flowers with a pearl ranger paint dobber

a picture i did and colored it with my copic markers side by side to the comic cover i got it from for comparison i messed up her nose but i thought it came out really good.

Thinking.....

yeah im sure a picture of a tombstone is pretty random to most but to most people who know me would know recently its really not. i took this picture on thanksgiving a week and 1 day after my Mema passed away, 2 weeks to the day she went into the hospitial she died. i miss her dearly i really do she was my biggest insepration a week after her being in the hospitial they found she had bone cancer and it was spreading threw her body but she was in no pain at all which i think was all on Gods part he completely watched out for her but coming on the last few days with her she told my uncle david she was ready to see my grandpa who died 22 years ago i view it as she was at peace she was ready to go and it really helped me cope with loosing her i went on thursday and just stood there and talked to her and i can deffently say i wasnt the only person out at the cementy that day so im sure i didnt look like a crazy person and honestly i didnt care if i looked werid or crazy to someone passing by it helped alot to just stand out there and talk they ahd placed all the flowers from the funeral there and even with them dieing it just looked beautiful and peaceful. my Mema was one of my biggest inspirations for everything big i did from my artwork to my school she encouraged all of us to do the things we love she was the back bone to the whole family and you would think when something like this happens your family would fall apart but honestly with all of this i think it has just brought us all completely closer.and that is what she always wanted she loved all of us and i know she is watching over us, <3 i miss you everyday mema but i will always keep our amazing memories like the time we where really nosey and drove around the cementry to look at the different tombstones hehe 

And the goal is.......

My new goal is to be completely done with my last forever last of highschool online classes by dec 7th and odd day to pick but it honestly isnt. if your reading this and you know me then you already know that im highly addicted to World of Warcraft lawls and the new exp comes out Dec 7th *cheers* well i made a deal with my mother that if im done with both classes by then she will fork out the 70 dollars i still owe on my collections edition so now im on the race to finish that way next semster and the rest of this semster i dont have to worry about it agian good focused i have a goal to keep in mind and the countdown to the 7th of dec begins!

Art Journal Flip 2

Second half of my art journal still working hard on completeing it =D

Art Journal Flip

My first half of my art Journal

First Post!

Its  currently 2am in the morning and I'm finally starting a blog which is kinda weird but i think it will help me with all the stress Ive been having lately with school i feel like its always school they say your senior year of high school is suppose to be fun and exciting and awesome. i feel like half of that is a lie there is so much to do your senior year its insane. the list starts getting everything set and done so you can graduate, continue making good grades why because you have to start applying for scholarships, find out where you want to go do you want to move away or stay where you are for college, find some idea of what you want to major in because well your going to start paying for your school so it matters not that i haven't been paying for it well i havent my parents have which i thank them so much Ive gone to a private school for all my high schooling years and though it had its ups and downs i dont regret it at all my school is part homeschooling / private schooling and the summer before my ninth grade year everytime it would get brought up mostly with my family the first words that would come out is your going to miss everything your homecoming your football games prom blah blah blah well honestly ive never been really big into sports me watching sports turned out to be really funny honestly trying to say what was going on in a football game at lunch one time was just funny it was a lot of umms and oh he droppd something yellow on the ground what does that mean so sports just arnt my thing and as far as homecoming and prom i would of never gone to them have i went to public school i feel its a waste of money and just bleh was never into that. but as my highschool years come down to the end even though its oct and i dont graduate to may it still feels like its on a downfall to the end i finally hit that hill and its coming down to the finish line which meens i need to get off my lazy butt and finish my classes, it makes me think about next year first year of college and what do i want to do well after talking with my princpal who will give you insite to everything and talking with my teacher and been trying to find a sign and praying about it for weeks on end and being so lost and confussed about it. it was there right there it just popd into my head just like a smack in the face i finally figured it out i figured out what i want to do when i grow up we are asked this all the time going from one grade to another and as  a little kid i always said i wanted to be a teacher it was always a teacher which is common one between little kids and by my 9th grade year all those thoughts had washed outta my head and i become so into video games i thought well why dont i do something like that but then realsed am i going to want to do this for the rest of my life and it just seemd like so  much work and its such a busy career there are so many people wanting to be in it and i just figured out it wasnt for me but i had been talking with a few people and i kind of put my foot in the door about next year about teaching at the school im going to now i meen the classes are small so it wouldnt be like im in front of tons and tons of people but it would be a small group me and my small group of students who will take my class which makes me nervious because what if no one wanted to take a class with me lol i meen im sure someone will but this brings me back to what i wanted to be when i grew up well here i am growing up still growing even if id like to think i have the mind of a 25 year old and some people say i do but i figured it out i want to become an art teacher i watch youtube videos all the time and i was listening to one one day i think it was by Suzi Blu and she said you dont have to be perfect to make art and i totally agree with this i cant draw i cant draw at all but i know how to do the basics i can make 3d shapes i know the basics on colors i know uite alot im still learning but your never done learning till the day you die and you may learn something new right before then i meen you never know. so i figured it out im going to teach art im going to become an art teacher i keep being asked well what are you going to teach them if you teach an art class and i basiclly said im going to teach them what i know best and thats painting i love to paint i love to art journal i love the whole mixed media art i love being able to express how i feel in a painting or on a page or just doing randomness on a page just because its what i love to do and i was asked well wouldnt that be like teaching them how to feel if that is what you do when you art journal and the anwser to it is simply no im not teaching these kids on how to feel ill be teaching them a way to express yourself in a whole different way just like i do. im not really sure what else to write im really not and my writing tends to be so random and non formal so im sure reading my sentcenes are like insanely long and annoying but it works lol